Something I Have To Forgive Myself For.
Nobody can be everything to everyone. I know that I have tried to do just that and have failed miserably.
When our youngest daughter, asked my hubby and I, 17 years ago, if we would adopt her unborn child, I had no second thoughts. Then almost 15 years ago, we adopted another grandchild.
I have tried to be everything that I could be for each of the girls, but I know that I have failed in many ways. At my age, it has become harder to keep up with them and I know that they really need so much more. I love them so much that it hurts sometimes. When they were small things went smoother, but now that they have reached teenage years, life is so full of drama. It seems that I am never right. Too old fashion and just not a good mom.
Well, today, I forgive myself for not being what they want me to be. We have two older girls and they have turned out great. Never have they talked to me like the last ones do. I know in my heart of hearts that I am a good mother. One day they will look back and realize that I gave my all and was a good mother to them. I believe in who and what I am.
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